loosing it..

Some acquaintances are just like that and there are some, where you just meet once and then you loose the sense of timings.. hours passes by like minutes and time just shrinks.. you wanna to meet again and again.. and again. you can talk for hour's and hour's and still feel like there is so much to talk.. there is so much to listen. you feel like let the time should stop by and let you define the clock..

and if then you realize that the person is not happy.. what would be your feeling.. it is like you are dawning while people consider you as one of best swimmer who has won English channel at age of 4 year, while your peers were still fighting to grab that extra sip on milk bottle.

You try, and try hard and even harder to make the person happy and just happy and provide the solicitude of heaven, but then is there any heaven at all??

What do you do at the end of such situation.. call it quits? or just let it pass by the way it is..

I think I am not the best person to judge this.. but I only know that it is a very uncomfortable situation to be into.. and this could be one of worst nightmares a person can ever experience in a lifetime.. Is winning so important that we have to make someone loose..

Unanswered questions.. is all what I can think of these days......

for the first time

"Hey, where are you" were the words when I picked up the mobile to give it's ringer a much needed silence and it;s transmitter some work to add up the revenue of Airtel

I am just going to leave this place in next couple of minutes to drive back to my place, and where are you

"Currently on my way, I am going to complete some urgent project at my friends place, and right now passing from place X"

and then came much detailed description of the locations and whereabouts of both of us. In next couple of minutes I departed to reach my own destination. And as luck will have it, the person was also going to cross the same place in next couple of minutes.

"So can you identify me"

I will try, and hey.. here you comes, see car no DLXX XXXX is crossing from your right, and now you can see this thing zooming past your left

"But where are you"


I am where I should be


"I can't see you"

and we kept playing hide and seek for couple of minutes before the final words were said

"And now I can see you, you are on 7702, and hey go away.. why are you chasing me"

I guess chase is been done from behind, and everyone seems to adhere by that. and currently you are behind, so who is chasing.. though game for coffee


"No, but you go away... and hey. drive slow"

now someone tell me.. if you need to go away, don;t you need to speed up.. but then.. wishes are wishes..

and then we kept chatting for net 8 km;s without stopping and looking at each other... while auto wala was planning to hit me for disturbing his customer, and would be wondering what the hell is happening around him, where two persons following same route are talking over mobile, guess cell is too cheap these days or the persons are too crazy to care for money.

and then came a time when the routes were diverted, and suddenly the person in auto said

"Game for coffee.. but only if you can catch me"

ok.. here I come


"ok.. let;s see.. if you can catch me before this place X, only then.."

O yes.. I love challenges


and bike was not running on ground.. I was just flying a bit low, and I guess the occupant of auto was not aware of my skills of flying with two wheels.. and I was at desired spot before even the auto can dream of reaching..

"Hey.. go away.. no I don;t wanna come"

but you said that you will if I can catch you

"Yes I did, but now I am saying go away.. I don;t"

and suddenly I spotted auto, and my heart pounded, am I going to do it just because I win, do I have right to force anyone... is becoming winner means grabbing award, and what will I get as a award for that.. will the bigger award be the happiness of someone or showing that I don;t loose... thoughts crossed my mind on a speed of shatabdi..

I think I lost my way

"O wow.. I was knowing that.. you can't catch me anyways.. and now as you lost.. so here I go

in my mind I said - I lost my way doesn;t mean the road, but what it means is that though I reached but I am not convinced that I need to show that I am macho man on road and I can do it. If you will be the one who will be needed to know what I can do, you will surely come to know, else does it matters. and I saw the auto zooming away into the dusk..

Something inside me was making me happy that for my own ego, I won, and I know it. But atleast for someone's laugh I didn;t let the ego become a barrier.. the laugh of hearing me confused were enough for me to feel happy, I asked for a coffee because I felt that I can provide some laughter over a cup of coffee but I guess I did that without actually holding a cup in my hand.. and my ego subsidized.

"I think we both are crazy, and this was best time I ever had traveling in auto, you made me laugh my guts out, I am so happy, thanks"

and these words were like a balm for my wounded ego.. I won and I won without making anyone loose.. what say???